The FIRST

Welcome Everyone to my Blog!

I have been a Good Watcher to alot of blogs, I noticed that people who owns a blog is either to express their feelings, or who are abroad and created a blog to let their friends everywhere about their news. I guess I will be doing both of those things!

When I woke up in the morning, I wasn't feeling bad as the past few months but how the day ended made me feel more bad than ever before!! coz what happened today made me decide to put the last dot in that story!

I guess I'm paying a punishment these days of being so nice to people. In general I know alot of people and that makes me feel really really Happy, All of my Old friends envies me for such thing. However, that didn't defend me of knowing friends other than good! I don't really know if they are but what they do, made me thinks so!!

I don't know, why when he/she is bored and wants to tell a story from his revelation of thought to the others, he/she has to mention that I said so, whether I really said so or not!,To be more clear he/she tells the others that I said bad things about them, So he/she will be the hero in other's eyes!! I don't mind people copying my words but the words that I really said! The problem that others believe that I said so! So they change their mind about me. I would have been really happy if they faced me with that!

Those things destroyed my feelings towards them, All I was doing is being nice and nothing than nice, didn't do anything or said anything bad about them. Infact that everytime I hear someone saying a bad thing about anyone of them , I stop him and tells him good stories or actions about that person, so he change his mind towards that person.

I have a weak point, that I'm very sensitive person. And I'm trying to solve it.

I'm not an angel but I have an important rule which is being nice to people and help them, will led them to do the same to me, If not from the same people, will be from other people.

It's an important rule in my life and I never changed it.

Being cheated the whole time, made me feel down after I had recovered from the job thingy!

After leaving work, I had a hard time during 2~3months. Feeling so down, staying at my room most of the time. Not being folded, so people thinks that I need help, infact I needed help but that wasn't the reason, The reason was that I didn't want to face people with the mood that I had, so they thinks that I changed or I'm a bad guy.

They couldn't face me with the truth, OR what they really thinks about me, OR what made them do such things to me. I wish they could! It would have been much easier for me at this moment!

I could have did the same thing, copying words from others whether true or false, and I would have been the Hero! But It's not my way!

Today I decided to be more careful with people, And Never trust anyone!

8 years back My dad told me a wonderful advice, Never trust anyone, Just trust yourself! I feel ashamed coz I didn't take his advice. But from now on I will listen carefully to every single advice dad tells me.

"Last dot in that story" that I mentioned in the begining is that I decided not to care anymore about them, but I still won't do any bad things back.

Probebly your asking now what happened today, but I'm really sorry I prefer to keep it for myself!

For people who are curious, I'm sorry not for being mentioning names at all :=P I guess the messege has been delievered to them.

So, that was alittle bit of my feelings right now!


I will keep posting!


sorry for the long post.


MOE